Been a while........counting my blessings!

Hey all! It has been a while since I posted. I want to take this morning to reflect upon the blessings of the people in my life. I have noticed in my blogs that I come across selfish, arrogant, and preachy. This morning, I preach about the virtuous beings that circle my orbit! Please know that the people mentioned today are just a few of the masses that I care about. I will not call each of them out by name, but they will know who I am speaking of!

1. Daily man. This man has entered my life with a force of nature that compares only to hurricanes and typhoons. His positive attitude, upbeat nature, and constant support and love make my life the best it has ever been! This man took the initiative on the THIRD day of my release to come forward and introduce himself. He had been introduced to my story, via my friends, about my life prior to my prison sentence and became "infatuated". We had never met, yet it seemed as if we were old friends. I must confess, I was put off at first, but saw through my own bullshit to welcome him into my life. It was the best decision I have ever made. His love and support have helped the transition from "convict" to "human" as easy as possible. He is ever loving, never flinching, and quick to check me on my follies and faults. A strong hand with a gentle touch. I look forward to building many memories and life experiences with him by my side.

2. Old man. This man has been in my orbit for the last eight and a half years. A gentle soul. A simple man, who loves too intense. The "all or nothing" attitude he exhibits is admirable, yet so old school. He refuses to see the bad in anyone. He refuses to acknowledge the sins of the past. He lives only for the future. Good for him. We went through hell together, both surviving, and now he seems truly happy. The sound of his voice is a quiet moment in the storm of my life. I know I can count on him for anything, yet I ask nothing from him except his friendship. The path of our lives are strewn with boulders, cactus, and deep waters. Thank God, our love and friendship have survived all the elements and tribulations.

3. Sister. A source of strength. A source of NOW. The unabashed force of her love propels me to move forward. It is an odd connection between us both. It is as if we were separated at birth, and finally reconnected in some odd "Oprah" moment 20 years later. Our lives parallel each other with similar past histories. Our future mirrors one another to the point of dreadful fear. It is as if we are waiting for the other to make the next move to see how it works out for the other. Each of us knowing we are on similar paths. Each of us scared to death of the results, yet we can't wait to get there. In her I have found my sense of discovery. The kind of discovery that you have when you are 12 years old and the world is brand new. The sky is the limit when I am around her. xoxo

4. New man. This man has re-entered my life with a vengeance. He is a deeply loving, caring, family man of upstanding values and morals. (He would beg to differ, but he is too close to the situation!) He is going through an extremely life changing experience. He has proven to me, yet again, only the strong survive through sacrifice and love. He has the ability to have everything in life he desires, but chooses to WAIT, because of his children. Can a man be anymore self-less? This act alone speaks volumes to me and everyone who has become a quick part of his life. I look forward to many memories with this friend and the joy of watching him become who he wants to be!

5. Old friends. The transition has not been easy for anyone. Especially my "old friends". I have written in previous posts that this road has been rocky. It has to be. In order for growth, of any kind, situations and limits had to be tested. These "tests" are becoming less severe and basic civility and order are restoring among us all.

6. New friends. The discovery of "self" has opened the floodgates to my new possibilities. Too many to count, these people have each brought something to me that, without going to prison, I would have never known. Each new friend holding a wider view for me to expunge upon. Each new friend bringing a fresh view to an old soul. They are my Yang to my old friends Ying.

7. Bonnie and Clyde. In this crazy world, everyone needs a strong root. These two have provided not only the root system for me to stay grounded, but the shade of a strong tree. Protective, loving, and just there. No questions, no judgements, just love in the form of parents. They have been through it all with me. I, literally, would not be here today without there love and support!

As you can read, I am very lucky.

For a man to have just one of the above people in his life he is blessed. For me to have all of them?........................................................................

It is an embarrassment of riches.

I love you all..........
xoxo