can't stop the tears...........

I am sitting here, a 40 year old man, crying like there is no tomorrow.

I believe it is a combination of things.

distrust.

scolding.

mocking.

being put in my place.

What bothers me, is no one realizes they are doing it because I am too big a PUSSY to say anything out of fear.

Fear of homelessness, fear of hunger, fear of being useless.

If I just suck it up. Try not to think about it, it will all go away...........right?

WRONG...........

I have to man up or face the consequences.

I just don't want to lose what little I have at the moment. It isn't much, but, I always have to be reminded how "lucky" I am to have what I have thanks to everyone but me............