Rodney, you truly need to grow up. You have SOOOOOOOOO much more than any one person could ever wish for and still you moan and groan.
You live in a beautiful home with one of the world's most beautiful men and still it never seems enough for you.
This "Whoa is me" crap really has to come to end.
It's all played out...
26/11/08 11:43 AM
First off "Anonymous".
I agree with everything you state. I am GROWING up, that is the process I am working through. Unlike your "perfect" life, or jealous "life".....I AM WORKING ON IT!
I'll tell you this. Let's trade lives for one day. One day.
You get up. Go to a shitty job where you are judged solely on the "color" of your skin. Judged for the simple fact that you can put two sentences together and form an opinion of intelligence. And when I say judge, not in the positive way. Yes, reverse racism is alive and well in 2008! Not just against gay people, but those of us not fortunate enough to have had "perfect" worlds with Mom's and Dad's, stable homes, secure pasts, strong families.....
You then get to this job, deal with "stoners" and "children".
Then with your two fifteen minute breaks try to convince potential employers that you are not as bad as it sounds.
Compound that with the fact of my "estranged" family, whom-before this incarceration-I was very included.
Add that to the pitiful wage I earn, the support I take from Joe, and my "anonymous" and close friends....
Figure in the fact that I can't leave the city limits without a permission slip.
Oh, and add in the looking over my shoulder for "forces" of the unknown. (Not unseen people, just conditioning from "rehab".)
Joe sent out an email two days ago and was very thankful for everyone in his life, especially me.
I FEEL THE SAME WAY.
You comment on the fact I live in a beautiful home with a beautiful man. VERY TRUE. But, let me ask you this? What do you see when you come into this home? (As you obviously have-"not so anonymous") Do you see two people sharing a life? Ups, downs, fights, love, struggle, and getting by.........How quick one is to judge from a posting on MY blog.
In your statement "it never seems enough for me", guess what, it doesn't. What you misjudge and misread is the context of my statements. Am I that shallow? Am I that insincere? Life should never be enough for anyone! When one starts thinking life is great and there is nothing left to accomplish or achieve, one is dead.
And for your "whoa is me" thinking? Get a grip. I am sure your "anonymous" ass has never had a low day. A day where you fall into bed and think, "damn--thank god--I survived!" Yet, you still get up, face your life, and try to move forward.
ALL PLAYED OUT? Many of my "old" friends had a problem with me coming home from prison. Many HAVE a problem that I have picked up the pieces of my life and have and am trying to move forward.
Guess what?
I don't care.
It amazes me the liberty a person takes when hid behind an "anonymous" persona. I want to thank you "anonymous", you have proved, without a doubt, my long standing ideals as to my "friends".
I started this blog, like everyone else, to share my thoughts, work through my troubles, connect with other people. (YES--other people--who don't have the perfect life of an "anonymous" person.)
I WILL NO LONGER EMAIL MY "FRIENDS" WITH MY THOUGHTS, CONCERNS, FAILURES OR TRIUMPHS. If you want to read MY "blog".....read it, express your opinion, yet, realize, everything in the universe is returned threefold.
The one thing about this posting that bothers me?
It has tainted my view of "everyone"........
I have to be honest.
Old friends.
New friends.
Anonymous friends....
The problem is this......everyone is in the same group.
I DID THE CRIME.
I PAID THE TIME.
I DEAL WITH IT EVERYDAY............
I FORCE "NO ONE" TO LIVE IT, WALK WITH ME, OR BE IN MY LIFE.....
PERHAPS YOUR "ANONYMOUS" ASS SHOULD THINK ABOUT YOUR TWO FACED LIVING AND HAVE THE BALLS TO SAY THESE AND THE MANY OTHER THINGS YOU THINK ABOUT ME TO MY FACE! PERHAPS IN OUR "BEAUTIFUL" HOME!!
1 comment:
I re-read this today and was really disappointed that someone left Rodney something like that as an "anonymous" posting. If you're tired of hearing Rodney's point of view on things, stop reading his blog... or talk to him personally to let him know how you feel. This place is supposed to be a place where Rodney puts his thoughts, positive or negative, reflective or for the future, in his words, his way. If he wants feel a bit "woe is me," it's his perogative.
Sometimes I agree with what Rodney says, and sometimes I don't, but I really don't feel the need to tell him how he should write in his own blog.
Respectfully - Brian
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