It has been an interesting ride, this life of mine, for the last 4 days. Up, down, quiet, boisterous, happy, sad. I could never quite figure out why. I could never really put my finger on it. Until yesterday.
Damn.
Damn.
Damn.
Exactly 3 days to the anniversary, of a horrible incident that occurred while I was in "rehab". I had pushed this incident far, far, far out of my mind. At least I thought I had.
Yesterday at work, I was working on a brief and testimony for one of our clients. I will not give the details. I will not dwell on the subject. I will only say that it was like a slap in my face. There I was, working on this "brief" and encountering everything full circle again in my head. I could not shake it for quite some time. I went to bed last night reliving the horror of that night one year ago.........
Rough night.
Belly ache.
Mind twisting.
Maxx wet on my side of the bed.
Yet. I am thankful for the blessings of my "life".
Saturday I was extremely upset with my family.
Their complete lack of my existence.
Their complete disregard for my familial ties.
Their complete lack of common courtesy.
I am over it.
I should be ashamed of my riches. (As I post regularly)
One year ago today I was somewhere where life seemed but a dream.
An existence beyond the walls was just a folly.....
I am thankful for everyone in my life.
I am thankful for Maxx peeing on my bed.
I am thankful for the blessing of a wonderful man in my life.
I am thankful for the joy of a life full of choices........
Too many times I dwell on the pain of the past.
Too many times I think I will never get anywhere.
Too many times I overlook the obvious.
Too many times I think I need more.
Too many times I want more.
Thank you life for the life I have been given.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I am truly blessed to have you in my life!
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