Happy Sunday everyone. I thought I would take a few minutes to catch everyone up on my life. The last couple of postings have been frivolous and fun, but no meat. Mostly filler in my "so busy" life!Where to start?........
The past three weeks have been a very hard transition for myself and everyone in my "little" circle. Gone are the carefree weekends of fun and sun in the pool. Gone are the Saturday afternoon gatherings and frollicking in pool. Gone is the noise and the laughter of friends in the backyard. I know this sounds crazy, but my plants have even noticed it. Maxx has finally stopped searching for people when Joe and I are both home at the same time. Summer 2008 was about discovery, friendships, and the comfort of every Saturday being in the same place with basically the same people. My, everyone's, own little family.
Alas, the pool is closed.
The weather is beginning to change, and so are our "lives". The hugs are still there. The people are still around. The feeling is just gone. I compare it to going back to school when we were "younger". Remember? I was always excited. The smell of new underwear and tennis shoes. The thought of seeing those you hadn't seen in -"OH MY GOD"- 3 months! The anticipation of new and exciting classes with teachers whom you had heard of their reputations!........I know I still think that way when the autumnal "feeling" starts to creep in.
The weird thing about being an adult is the way I relapse into "childhood". I always want new shoes in the fall. I always want a new pair of jeans. I desire to make contact with those who have, for whatever reason, glided out of my life.
I know I am not the only one who goes through this transition. I have witnessed it first hand with everyone in my circle. Depression, snappiness, and "edgey-ee-ness". The smallest tasks becoming the most unsurmountable. The easiest chores actually becoming work. That impending feeling of "loss". It is quite real. It actually should be studied!
Now that I have explained my mindset for the past couple of weeks I can fill you in on what has been going on.
Weekends have become a chore. I spend all week working. Looking forward to Saturdays and Sundays, only to feel disappointed if there is nothing planned! Crazy, huh? Granted, there is a lot of "goings on" happening, just nothing that gets my engine revved up! Joe and I are spending a lot of time tinkering around the house. Cleaning this, organizing that, making costumes, playing with the dog....life.
Joe's new job has him traveling for the time being, thus, adding to my "pondering" time.
Dr. Small's job has her very frustrated at times. And she, like myself, hates to be out of control.
Work is slowing down, thus, the differences of my life compared to my co-workers is becoming awkwardly noticeable. Great bunch of kids but life does not revolve around video games and "blunts".
Luvy Duvy's has become a Saturday morning refuge. A small gathering of the "usual suspects" to catch up. Much like the summer without the intensive amounts of water and vitamin D. (Be sure to check out the Boozin' for Boxers slide show to the right-It has been the highlight of my fall so FAR!!)
My ex, from 14 years ago, showed up in St. Louis on Friday evening. WOW...what a difference 10 years has made. He is a "re-habbed" man. He finally acknowledged the damage and the trauma he caused in my life. Both with me and my family. It takes big balls to admit your faults, been there-done that, but the closure of it all settles a big part of my feelings of failure.
I have a very full life. I am not complaining. I am just missing summer. Selfish, egotistical, and tragic. I know.
Oh, and I am going to let you in on a little something.
IT IS GREAT AND IT IS ALL MINE!
Love and kisses, peace and hugz.....
and remember.....only TWO FREEKIN' WEEKS TO THE PARTY OF THE YEAR!!!
4 comments:
OMG!!!! I so feel the same way right now! I miss hanging at the pool with all the peeps! Depression has definitely set in. This past Saturday I actually CRIED for the first time in months because I felt so sad and lonely without anything to look forward to. Pitiful, huh?
But, alas, life goes on, things change, have to find something new to look forward to.
Have a great week!!
Well I must say I have never experienced a beginning of a school year like this on. Maybe I was listening too much to the 7th grade teachers last year when they said that particular class was not that bad. I guess it is relative to the class the 8th grade teachers had last year. It was a hard core group of students last year and this year is more gentle, kid like but that seems to be my issue. I think 8th graders should be more independent and not need to get rewarded everytime they do something that they should be doing.
If it was only a piece of candy I could handle that every now and then but they want more. Is it because their parents cater to them? I think so. I hear too many parents making excuses for their children. That is really too bad. The children will learn to depend on their parents and their excuses and not see what they need to do to complete the project.
OK I am off my soap box. I am really looking forward to the party of the year.
Later,
BOSS
WHO is that cute, cute kitty? A new member of the family? SO cute!
Hello from Denver!
The kitty is just a pic I found on line! It was supposed to explain my mood!!
Back at Denver!!
rodney
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