It has happened. The dreaded flashback to times past. Those awful memories of deception, anger, and frustration.
I was approached and confronted Tuesday night about how "great" my life has become since my release.
How is it that I have everything I do?
How is it that I have a partner, a dog, a great life, and a smile on my face?
Why do I deserve it?
The question is this. Why not?
I am not preaching. I am not grandstanding. I am FINALLY living my life the way it was meant to be lived! I care more for other people. I work my ass to the bone. And I refuse to give up or get down at what life throws me.
I have never been a "spiritual" person, but the reality of my past has turned me that way. It may come as a shock to everyone that I do pray. I do wish the best for everyone in and out of my life. And I will not allow myself to fall into the "pity" trap.
I am a big believer in karma. I am a HUGE believer in everything you do in YOUR universe effects the entire universe around your center.
I am living my life as I see fit for the purpose of all. For the first time in my life, it is not about me, and the universe is responding accordingly.
None of us "deserve" what life throws at us. Our mission is simple.
We must overcome even the smallest trials.
We must work through our "tribulations".
We must respect the glory of each others lives.
You must love yourself and not rely on others to bring this feeling to your soul.
Simple? Hell no.
Worth it? Hell yes.
1 comment:
Rodney, First and foremost....
You must remember what others think or say, have no bearing on your life...
They should have no bearing on how you see your own life...
We all know - life is what you make of it!!!!!
You my dear man, deserve everything you have worked for in life.
YES, maybe you have someone Special in your life that is able to "help" direct you, support you, encourage you to reach further, strive harder, dig deeper within, to desire more for yourself. But in the end it is you, the person, the heart, the drive within you that wants more for yourself, for us, for Maxx!!
Sometimes things happen for a reason, and maybe your "vacation" was for a purpose, a reason for you to step back, review your life, and make the changes you saw needing to be changed. That my friend, my love, my partner - you are doing. MAKING CHANGES, and at great strives. We all see it; we all see that smile that wasn’t there before.
BABE - I SEE IT! And it makes me smile!!!
I do agree it has happened quickly, but you had made your decision to make life better along time ago, and you've shown me and many others that you were serious!
I love you...
I trust you...
I desire you...
I need you...
For good or bad!
So when someone tells you something like this...
Just Smile! Smile! Smile!
If they are noticing these things, then by god it must be happening and in a very positive way! Enjoy it! Show it off! Be proud of what you have. Who knows why people say these things...
Could it be jealousy...
Could it be a friend acknowledging your progress...
Could it be a stranger who never noticed you before and finally see's a strong, self-standing man...
No matter...
Rondey Bequette, be proud!!!
I AM (of you) !!!!
Love,
joseph :)
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