Been a while.....Have to stop and write.

In the past two weeks my life has went from sublime to supreme. Numerous incidents to further my life have occurred. Nothing dramatic. Just a sense of stability......it is a wonderful feeling.....one I have not had for quite some time.

I've enrolled in school. It was a feeling of freedom and oppression being with all the students to register, talk with advisors, and deal with financial aid. I, literally, could have been the father to over 3/4 of the people I encountered on Wednesday. The feeling of "starting" over again crept into my mind for about half the day. I felt defeated, ashamed, useless and distraught over the wasted years of my life.........

I GOT OVER IT!!!


I don't want to sound pompous. I don't want to sound spoiled. ( In essence, I guess I am both of those adjectives.) I have finally realized that my life is what I make it to be.

Better late than never. Go big or GO home.


As I sat there in the line with these fresh faced students, all wide eyed and full of hope, a feeling of FINALLY came over me. I finally have taken control of my life. I finally have a clean slate. I finally have the strength and courage to move ahead in a positive manner. I know this time it will work for the simple fact of my inner and outer strength.........

I told Joe and my dear friend John, I have never wanted anything so bad as my college degree. When I think about it, I compare it to my release from prison. I want it that bad. I NEED it that bad.


In the past couple of weeks I have come to love Joe and my friends even more than I thought possible. Uncle Edward told me, no both Joe and I, everything happens for reasons out of our control. My pairing with Joe, my split from John, my prison experience, the growth of myself as a productive human have all occurred because of a great karmic kickback. That is the true meaning of life.


The duality of good and bad.

The outweighing of "why me" and turning it into "why not me"?


My life has been a huge lesson, and it continues to teach me every day.


One day at a time.
One hour a day.
One minute an hour.



I can finally smile for all the right reasons.


I can smile for life.


I can smile for a future.






I can smile for Maxx's never ending love.




I can smile because of NOTHING.......


Thank you Joe.............
Thank you friends.........
Thank you Karma.........